- Qìng Tiån -

2005-03-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

my interest in blogging is dying. no one reads it anyway ):

2005-03-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

how i wish to go sa. though it seems quite impossible. cut off at 9 and i got 10. just hope i can go!

2005-02-28T17:47:00.000+08:00

after much anticipation, the long waited o level results are finally released.
heres mine:
eng - b3
ch - b3
geog - a2
emaths - a1
amaths - a2
physics - a2
chem - a2
chi - b4

l1r5: 12
l1b4: 10

hmm.. was quite happy when i first saw the results... alot of subjects were better then what i've expected. like geog, was expecting a b4 and i got a2. im exhilarated. and for english.. was expecting a b4..... got a b3...... so not bad lol. quite disappointed with my amaths though... thought i would get an a1.. ended up with an a2. sigh. if only i got an a1 for amaths. then my l1r5 would be 11... my target. with l1r5 of 12...i cant go much jc.....except ac, i wanted to go aj or sa... think i will most prob put them as my first 2 choices.. hope i can get into them.. congrats to everyone who have done well for their o's =)

2005-02-27T13:18:00.000+08:00

tmr is the day that will affect me for the rest of my life. judgement day.

2005-02-25T20:52:00.000+08:00

i changed my mind. I WILL NOT MISS OG8. ok maybe for some of the enthu ones and the ogls.

2005-02-25T20:09:00.000+08:00

bleah. just went around look at others' blog. after which, i look at my own blog. realised that my blog is lackin of good english. gotta blog with a dictionary next to me the next time!

2005-02-25T16:23:00.000+08:00

damn it... 2 more days to the release of results.. i miss u... 05s12... never again will we be sitting in the same class..... never again will we be doin love fiesta together again... never again... never again..

i wanna thank jj.. for giving me such a wonderful first 3 months.. really glad to know my ogmates, classmates.. i will miss all of u! gd bye jjc! ( hope so )

2005-02-20T10:08:00.000+08:00

its 5 days to the release of o level results if the rumour is true..... fickle-minded me feel like staying in jj again..though i hate the principal, i love the people there, i love 05s12, i love og8.. sigh. gonna miss 05s12 badly if i ever gonna leave. aniwae, goin to a new jc means having to readapt, have to make new friends, etc, etc... and it would be quite hard to make friends by then becoz everyone will hav their own cliques already... argh.. dilemma. guess i will just do this.
>12 => try to ajc
12-18 => jj
<18> poly

ok lets talk about something else... LOVE FIESTA! yea my class did great.. being able to cheat so mani of the people into 'haunted mansion' lol. apart from the starting 30 mins... there's a neverending queue to our 'haunted mansion'. hope our revenue is one of the highest... haha. this love fiesta had really bonded the class much better. for 2 consecutive days...we stayed till 8pm++ in sch trying to set up the place. pure hardwork lol. hmm.. so love fiesta was over with pretty much of scaring people.. after which a small group of us went to hav dinner...then we just sat around and chatted... i love such sessions. where we just sit down and talk cock. haha. hope there will be more of such sessions ;)

2005-02-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

sibei sian. cant wait for 25th/28th of feb to come. why? coz thats the day o level results will be released. cant wait for results..so that i can decide to stay in jc or to go poly, or to go what jc. then like that i can concentrate on my studies willingly..... unlike now, i cant concentrate because i dunno whether im gonna stay or not... what im studying now is relevant to me in the future or not... fuggin 25th/28th just come!

2005-02-11T20:59:00.000+08:00

its the...... 3rd day of chinese new year! nothing much happened this chinese new year... and yea. I WENT TO SCHOOL TODAY! recieved a sms yesterday.. saying about soccer today. so i thought there was a soccer training today. and i went school becoz of it. been not attending soccer training for 2 weeks... actually wanted to join softball.....but softball change its training to saturdays now. i dun think there will be training tmr...its still chinese new year ya? and its love fiesta next saturday... and the saturday after next. o levels results will be out. so its as good as saying there will not be anymore softball training. so i decided to go back soccer. which comes back to the topic. sooo i went school thinking theres a soccer training today, only to find out its actually a friendly match. jj agains tpjc. and i didnt go. so freaking far. tampines ya? yaya so after school went to cb house to play mahjong... lol not bad. luck was on my side. won abt 7 bucks. after that went to sh house.. and gambled again. won about 10 bucks this time. todays shou huo not bad...

for the past 2 days of new year. i hav won about 60++ !!! but it was so damn boring. zz. black jack black jack and more black jack. flucuations were common. can go negative and back to positive again. luckily in the end i was still positive. lol. so.....not a bad new year after all. ( money-wise ). lalala. nth more to crap. gooooooood bye!

2005-02-08T17:59:00.000+08:00

hmm. its chinese new year's eve today. its a day where families will gather to eat tuan yuan fan aka reunion dinner. and its just so sad my family doesnt do that. ='( no reunion dinner..no nothing. all we did was just to go to my grandparents house to eat steamboat. no we don't eat together. the table is freaking small so everybody take turn to eat. alright, pathetic i know. but this is my family. and chinese new year is getting more and more boring. its only new clothes, red packets, new year goodies, and GAMBLING. damn. i hate gambling. why cant people come up with something better than gambling when people gather?! urgh.....i hate the feeling of losing. so just give me win alright? i wanna buy a zen micro with the money from red packets. so bless me with alot of red packets with alot of money.

celebration in jj is so damn boring. and more than 1500 students have to squeeze into a tiny school hall. its just all the performing arts performing. so damn boring. except for the dances which were not so boring. the reunion breakfast was shit. lol. hmm went back to css after that. so sad. i didn't have much feelings when i went back to css again. did nothing much in css... only talked to miss chua. heard results coming out on 25th feb? hope the results come out faster.. than i can put in more effort in studying! well... i cant put in effort now because i haven't decide to stay in jc or go poly...

long entry.....haven't crap so much in a while. see ya and happy chinese new year~

2005-02-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

haiz. things will nv be the same.

2005-02-04T22:39:00.000+08:00

SELLING JJC FUNFAIR AKA LOVE FIESTA TICKETS. PLEASE LOOK FOR ME TO BUY THE TICKETS. ONLY ME. PLEASE DO NOT LOOK FOR OTHER JJC STUDENTS. SMS/CALL/MSN/TAG ME FOR MORE DETAILS. THE FUNFAIR IS ON 19TH FEB 2005. PLEASE BUY FROM ME!

2005-02-01T16:37:00.000+08:00

im sick of jc. sick of life. sick of everything. sigh.

2005-01-26T19:48:00.000+08:00

sigh. freaking tired. damn it. i dunno whether jc life is for me or not. its like the beginning onli, and i hav loads of problem with studies. lectures was copying copying and copying. no understanding. maybe i shall just go poly. maybe i will remain in jj. maybe. maybe. lets just hope i get a l1r5 of more than 20. den i dun hav to decide lol. cya

2005-01-24T23:31:00.000+08:00

happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me~

how pathetic. gotta sing to myself. lol happy birthday to me in 25mins time!

2005-01-19T17:29:00.000+08:00

argh. sick today. went to sch for like an hr before the migraine got me. had a hard time looking for the civics tutor to sign the form before i can leave the school. went home slept slept and slept. miss the first softball training and pc ( or was it games today? ). there's the mass dance tmr... kinda miss dancing already ;p cya

2005-01-16T14:30:00.000+08:00

blah. didnt go for the soccer trial yesterday. i was limping even as i was walking, how to go for the trial? aniwae..kinda give up on soccer liao. guess my soccer skills aint gd enough.. =/ giving up on soccer means another problem for me. wad cca should i join?! should i join rugby?! a sports which i know nothing about, or softball? softball is like baseball.. argh. or should i join some clubs and slack through my jc life? hmm...

ok back to yesterdae.

i had a medical checkup in the morning. for joining syfc. gotta pass this check up first before i can go for an interview... to join syfc. if everything go smoothly... i will be able to fly a plane on my own by the end of this year!

in the afternoon, met some of the 4/6 people and went to sent samatha off... erm... not really close to her so i dun feel much when she left? ( hope she doesnt see this lol ) well, actually, i dun see others feeling much too. aniwae, she will be just leaving for a year. so i dun see ani reason y we should be sad.

thats abt it for yesterdae...

todae is tutorial dae and resting dae. so there's nothing much to blog about. tata!

2005-01-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

sigh. did real badly during the soccer training today. completely off-form. must be the damn freaking heat. so hot today. looks like i better get ready to look for another cca. another last last last trial tml.. dun tink my chances will be high. nvm about soccer.

it was og dinner just now! not bad not bad.. a few of the og members didnt go though.. argh... cant blog properly now.. another loooooongggg day tml.... damn tired.

2005-01-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

tml is judgement day. plz let me be in jj soccer team. i love soccer (:

2005-01-10T17:08:00.000+08:00

calling out to all css graduates: WHO GOT A SIZE 40 CSS UNIFORM TO SPARE? OR PANTS SIZE 34 TO SPARE? ANYBODY WITH THE SHIRT OR PANTS OR BOTH PLZ MSG ME. ANYBODY KNOW ANYONE WEARING SUCH SIZES TELL ME OSO. THX ALOT!

2005-01-09T19:11:00.000+08:00

damn. im missing the camp ):

du du du du du TUH! ( the song keeps ringin in my head )

2005-01-07T14:25:00.000+08:00

JJ ROX!!! ORIENTATION ROX!!!!! I LOVE OG8!!

wooo~! look wad did an orientation camp did to me! brainwashed me completely. i would like to take back wad i said in the previous entry. IT DOESNT FEEL LIKE A SEC1 ORIENTATION CAMP! IT REALLY ROX! WOO~

love jjc now, really love the school spirit. everyone in jjc is in a big family, they dun jeer one another ya? unlike commonwealth sec. ( i will nv forget how some fuckers frm the same sch booed me. ) the spirit is really good... when we are playing games, when the winning team had completed the game.. they will not stop cheering, they will cheer for the slower team! this is wad i call family!

got to noe my OG muchhhhhhh better! all really nice people =D the ogls rocked too! played lots of games. but the best game is "world war 3"! haha. corny name. but its really good. got to get dirty with mud, flour, soapy water. though my og only got to win 2 out of the 9 games played, i really had fun and i guess the rest of the og had fun too! did hell lots of cheering. i shouted till my lungs almost came out. there's the mass dance too. learnt about 6 dances. really nice and easy to dance! and there's so much more in the orientation camp....wun be able to list it out here.

-yawn- damn tired now...slept only 4 hrs per day during the camp.. so.. bye!

p.s: THIS IS THE BEST CAMP I EVER HAD!!

2005-01-03T17:08:00.000+08:00

first day of school

BORING. real boring. it was deja vu ( or wadever u spell it). i felt like i went back to sec1. the orientation was like the same. cheers. blah. maybe its just the first day. and it was full of effing talks. at least for 2 to 3 hours. blah. cya

2005-01-01T10:29:00.000+08:00

the song is getting irritating. gonna remove it. ok

aniwae. HAPPY 2005~!

nt realli a happy one though. just read the papers again. tsunami death toll close to 150k? holy. dats realli alot. ya. and i hav done my part. i had donated $2 and some clothes to the victims!

new year resolutions.

1. pack my bloody messy room. untouched since after o lvls. looks like a rubbish dump now.

2. stop downloading music. buy original cds. u should do this too.

3. learn how to get chio bu's number. ( hiak hiak. )

4. be less dao.

5. train up my body. ( my resolution every year )

hmm. this should be it. hope i can stick to them. happy 2005~

2004-12-31T13:01:00.000+08:00

today is the last day of 2004.

hmm it doesnt feel like im goin to a new year now. nothing much has changed. im still me. guess i would still be me next year. blah.

happy 2005 in advance ( nt really a happy one though. )

2004-12-27T20:37:00.000+08:00

ehh...... school's starting like in a week time?!?! damn it. i just started to get a feel of holidays and school's gonna reopen. damnnn.

p.s: tagboard is belowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww~~~~~

2004-12-25T11:59:00.000+08:00

merry xmas =D

yea....its xmas now. and im here blogging. of coz its another rotting day at home. longer entry todae. since im so free now! woooo.

alright. my job has finally ended. no nid to sit in factory for the whole day anymore lol. got my pay in cash yesterday.... the feeling of getting ur pay is really good. and its like my first time to recieve such a big sum ok ( big sum to me ). okok

some conclusions after working:
1. I WILL STUDY HARDER AND MAKE SURE I DUN BECOME A FACTORY WORKER.
2. i will die earlier. ( after days of sitting on a pickup and breathing in exhuast gases frm cars )
3. studying is better than working

erm dat should be all? yar so i wasted 180 hours of my holiday sitting in a factory.

now back to yesterday. it was xmas eve. went to town. woah went there like around 9. it was so effing crowded. hate it man. with assholes spraying foams all around. and people squeezing each other. umm. saw mani bangalas. im a racist. i tink all the bangalas hav other motives for goin there. most prob to eat tofu. hahha. ohh ya. guess what? i had to take a rejected present. damn it. rejected by a 12-yr-old somemore. argh. i may be money-minded. but i hav my ego! tried to gave it away. but nobody wants it. and its now in my house since its a waste to throw it away. urgh.

merry xmas

2004-12-19T22:28:00.000+08:00

bored.

onli thing i did today. was to visit my grandfather grave. it was in cck. the place where u put the ash? it starts with a c. im not sure wad its called. ok crapping now. went there and saw other graves ( do u call them grave? ). saw many babies.. who died on the same day they were born. sigh. really felt pitiful for them. came into this world just to pass away. maybe its a good thing afterall? life is a suffering. im suffering. arghhhh.

work tml again. eff it. 5 more daes =)

2004-12-17T19:32:00.000+08:00

arghhhhh......regretted my jc choice man. should hav put pjc as the first choice. damn jjc. full of css ppl. i dun wanna see the same ppl again~~ this will spoil the chance of getting to know more chio bu! ( more css ppl, less ppl frm other sch ) arghhh ....... i wanna go some other jc!

2004-12-12T21:42:00.000+08:00

blah.
here to blog again.
the past week was boring.
my life is boring.
u cant expect anithing interesting to happen.
it was work and home for 5 weekdaes.
had steamboat at grandma's and kent's house yesterdae.

hmm..sounds like a report.
argh.
i dunno how to blog.
cant wait for 24th to come.

2004-12-04T20:52:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding
No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
But I'm not gonna be ok
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
What it's like
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)
To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked
When you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

nice song =)

2004-12-03T23:09:00.000+08:00

sigh...............
dunno y.
but im feeling so down rite now.
i feel like i have something trapped within me.
maybe its the boredom.
wadever.

2004-12-03T19:59:00.000+08:00

yea.....its weekend now~ no plans for sat and sun...guess its time for me to rot at home again. somebody ask me out leh! :$ im bored.

2004-12-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

haven blog in some days... freaking tired rite now. so i shall make a short entry.

working in a factory rite now, packing some metal parts. damn. it was BORING. but for money sake. i shall hold on! ($.$)
its 8.30 to 6 everydae. it was like eternity when i was working. wished dat i can speed time up.
alright. enuff abt work.

prom nite on tues. wasnt wad i expected. it was BORING (nothing seems to satisfy me nowadaes) it was dinner. prom king/queen selection. lucky draw. some games. singing. and home. the onli great thing abt dat dae was fototaking. took quite alot of pictures. nah. im not goin to show it here lol.

alrite. basically this was wad happen. lets hope some something INTERESTING will happen.

2004-11-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhhhhhhh shagggggggggggggged. so effing tired.

8.30am wake up.
go to work.
come back at 11.
bathe.
go sleep

my timetable for the past 3 daes. argh. this job realli sux. it was 10 hours of standing and talking each day. with a pathetic commission of $2 per pda sold. 1 pda cost like 1.2k? hello? and we get $2 commission? arghhhhhhhhhhh 1 last dae to go!

2004-11-24T21:30:00.000+08:00

just highlighted my hair... look like a ah beng now. zzzzzzz. hope i won't get beaten up when i walk on the street. dunno why it turn out like that...suppose to be ash? it came out blonde. actually its not bad la.... but only thing a bit too beng.

tmr hav to go changi expo to do cheap labour... 3 bucks per hour. ANYONE INTERESTED IN POCKET PCS PLS SMS ME OR GO CHANGI EXPO AND LOOK FOR ME!

2004-11-23T23:30:00.000+08:00

im back from the chalet. it was...sooooooooo boring. zzzzz it was nothing apart from gambling, playing xbox, eating tidbits and sleeping. bored to hell. and now here i am sittin in my house, feeling bored...........ahhhhhhhh am i so hard to satisfy? is it so difficult to make me interested in something? ARH GOD GIVE ME A HOBBY!!

2004-11-21T16:50:00.000+08:00

hey, guess wad? i made the first $28 dollars of my life!!! yep yep...found a part time job, a waiter at wedding banquets. actually it was better then wad i thought.. it was kinda fun? learning how to serve people and serve the dishes! though it wasnt easy money.. had to stand for 4 hours~ but the experience was worthwhile. really learn quite alot ( like using 2 spoons to "giap" noodles? ). lol.

next week (which is tmr) look kinda busy to me. i have my class chalet from monday to wednesday (hope it will be fun!) and from thursday to sunday, ive got a job selling pdas at some exhibition! if u wanna buy any pda.. dun forget to msg me! (though i dun think many people will be reading this). actually this job isnt confirm yet.. need to go for an interview first. kinda nervous, my first job interview of my life!

ay ay...type quite alot today. gotta go for work again soon. so see ya!

2004-11-20T16:07:00.000+08:00

weee...... i'm back. for good. after being offline for a quarter of a year, im finally back. spent so time finding this template..looks good huh? i just love black and white.

o's is finally over~ been waiting for this day for a long long time. but ironic as it seems, i feel so lost without having to study. just got nothing to do now...except rotting. i expected being online to be much more fun, but then after being offline for such a long time, i seem to be drifting away from the online world. life's kinda...boring and meaningless now?

ay.....gotta go now. cant blog too much. maybe later or tmr. bye

2004-06-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

o.o school's starting in like 10 hours time. most expensive holiday i ever had. wonderful. and screw school.

2004-06-26T20:16:00.000+08:00

-------warnining---------
full of vulgarities. do not read if you are not happy with vulgarities.

WHAT THE FUCK?! FRANCE LOST TO GREECE?! FUCK LA. AM I REALLY SO UNLUCKY OR NOT? ZZZZZZ. FRANCE CAN LOSE TO GREECE?! DAMN... IM GIVING UP ON EURO 2004. FUCKING RIGGED MATCHES.

zzzzzzzzz... another lucky thing happen to me today. today we had maths remedial as usual... and i wore slippers to school. a whole load of guys were wearing slippers to school also. everything was fine..until the lesson ended, and the whole group of us were walking out of school. ncc was in the parade square.. guess what? faizal signalled for me to go to him. YEA ITS ABOUT THE SLIPPERS IM WEARING. UH..... THERE'S LIKE 6 OTHER GUYS WEARING SLIPPERS TOO? WHAT THE FUCK? WHY CALL ME ONLY? FUCK LAH. NOW BECAUSE OF THIS SHIT I GOTTA GO DETENTION ON MONDAY. FUCKING ASSHOLE. WHY ONLY ME?

detention on the first day of school. WHAT A GREAT START.

FUCKING PISSED

AND NONO, I WON'T BE BETTING TONIGHT. FUCK EURO2004.

2004-06-25T22:38:00.000+08:00

SORRY ENGLAND! I THINK YOU LOST BECAUSE I BETTED ON YOU! sorry all england fans! my bad luck has caused england to lose! argh... tonight, if france lose, ITS GONNA BE MY FAULT AGAIN!

2004-06-24T21:21:00.000+08:00

fucking pissed. 9 matches in a row now. is there anyone unluckier then me? fuck it man. getting more pissed when ppl kept saying the team people bet on will lose. i didnt know it's so entertaining to see your friends losing money. humans.

2004-06-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

lost 5 matches in a row. how lucky can a person get.

2004-06-22T00:24:00.000+08:00

i'm dying, dying of not-enough-sleep syndrome. thanks to euro2004. i wanna sleep. i wanna watch. can i watch in my dreams?

2004-06-20T19:26:00.000+08:00

if greece don't win tonight, im dead. LITERALLY.

2004-06-16T00:44:00.000+08:00

1 and a half week to school reopen, and i have not done any homework. how great.

had a great weekend. went to melanie's house to sleepover, ya but most of us didnt sleep. it was gambling, gambling and gambling. gambling is addictive. start and you won't be able to stop. why? because if you win the first round, u would wanna win more, and this goes on. if you lost the first round, you would wanna recoup your loss. so, gambling is addictive. as a result, i lost 7 dollars in the 2 days. quite little compare to others, lol~.

just realise my eyesight is getting worse. eff. i dun wanna wear specs. i wanna be a pilot! ah. this holiday just seem to pass so fast.

2004-06-13T18:53:00.000+08:00

im fking pissed.

no la, just joking :)

ok, i know im damn bo liao.

but im just bored, bored, bored.

2004-06-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

went to the new je library today. i was really shocked.

no...its not because of the new awesome building

neither is it the number of computers in the library

but..... the number of commonwealthians in the library!

hmm, so what's so shocking about that? alright.. this is the june holidays and commonwealthians are actually studying their heads off in the library! my impression " commonwealthians are slack " has changed. it has become " commowealthians are so freaking hardworking! "

hah.. i was still planning to slack the whole june holidays. but now? i cant even slack in peace! my schoolmates are all mugging! how am i going to take the o's with them if i continue like that? argh. stressed. i must start revising.

i must start revising.
i must start revising.
i must start revising.
i must start revising.

ok, i dun think i can do it. ha ha ha ha~

2004-06-09T13:53:00.000+08:00

bored. haven step out of my house for 91 hours or 5460 minutes or 338400 seconds. cool. still counting...

2004-06-04T23:48:00.000+08:00

changed my blog skin. didnt have any space for tagboard..so.. trying to do the "comments" thing. but i got no idea how. somebody help me.

2004-06-02T22:35:00.000+08:00

so tired today. went to kuala lumpur. quite a boring trip, shall not elaborate much on that. well, everything seems boring to me. and its school again tommorrow, after a short rest of..... 2 days?! oh man school sucks.

and....... LINKIN PARK IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! i wanna go the concert! but sadly, i've got no companions. anybody interested?!

2004-06-01T23:17:00.000+08:00

sigh. im bored. really bored. thats why im here. why am i feeling so bored? why am i feeling so empty? sigh. somebody talk to me please. im so lonely ='(

2004-05-31T17:13:00.000+08:00

oh yeah. chinese o's is over~~ damn it. i studied so hard for "tian xie han zi" and guess what? i only know how to write 2. freaking forgot the words. and the compo topics suck big time. propanganda shit. " is singapore your dream home? " how can i disagree? MOE will definitely fail me if i disagree. so i have to suck up and write all the good stuff. but it's in lousy chinese. argh forget it. see the papers again in november.

alright, better part of the day now. went to watch " the day after tommorrow " after the exams. quite a good movie, at least it showed some part of earth being destroyed ( yea i'm a saddist ) unlike other movies. but the ending was kind of illogical? the storm just subside for no reason? ok thats all for today. bye~ time to enjoy

2004-05-30T19:08:00.000+08:00

its...... 13 and half more hour to chinese o's~ how great. after mugging for so long, i found out that i have forgotten most of the words. how great :) gd luck to me.

2004-05-29T17:24:00.000+08:00

i know you are having difficulties reading this. but i dun care. hahaha~

2004-05-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

4 days to chinese o's. how wonderful. i feel sleeply when i see chinese words. i shall read chinese when i have insomnia in the future. great. time to mug.

2004-05-24T20:57:00.000+08:00

warning: explicit content in the following entry.

fuck. i failed 1 subject. fuck fuck fuck fuck. i failed. I FAILED!!!!!!!! ARGHHHH......... spoil my aim of not failing any subject. sigh. 2 b4, 2 c5, 2 c6 and 1 d7. hope english isnt any worse. time to mug for chinese o lvls.

2004-05-22T23:13:00.000+08:00

got back most of my results... and yeah, i haven't fail any subjects yet. haven't got the results for CH and english.. hope i can pass. actually i was quite happy about not failing any subjects.. but then, when i see the results of people from other classes, i cant help but to feel stress. when they say their results are lousy..its a b3. my best grade is only a 4. cant help to feel but that im stupid? sigh. maybe its the effort im putting in. haven't really put in alot of effort for mid year.. been consoling myself that i have only study 1 day for each of the subject and hence my lousy results. what im worrying about is, if i study more days, will i get good results? hmmm o level chinese paper is 9 days away, yes, 9 days. so freaking close. i haven't started on it... i MUST start tommorrow. i swear. been out the whole of today. ok, real sleepy now. bye

2004-05-19T20:14:00.000+08:00

got back results of 4 subjects today, quite ok.. haven fail any subjects yet. because i haven got back the results of geography, which i expected myself to fail badly. ok. slight improvement in amaths and chemistry from last year. chinese standard remain as lousy and my physics results went down. ok thats all for the results part.

after school, my class had a match against 5/1. i did not even think of winning, i just hope that we will not get thrashed. everything was going well in the first half.. my class only conceeded 2 goals. second half, sigh, everything went havoc, 5/1 scored another 6 goals. nono, im not sore about losing. its just that i don't think we should lose by 8 goals to nil? i seriously think we can do better.. at most lose by 5 to nil goals? ok. thats it for today.

2004-05-18T00:05:00.000+08:00

sigh, im having post exam blues. i feel sad and depressed all of a sudden. dunno why. why? pms for guys maybe? lol. guys feel down too ok.. all humans will feel down...its a matter of whether they show it or not. some people might be cheerful and happy on the outside.. they might be hurt deeply inside. ah, talking crap again.

whenever i feel down, i will ask myself some philosophical questions.

"why am i here?"

to enjoy? to sleep? to eat? to die? i dunno.. perhaps there's just no reason for me being here.

"what do i live for?"

sad to say, after living on this earth for 16 years, i dunno what am i living for. i just flow with the current and follow instructions blindly. what do i live for? to grow up, find a job, take care of my parents? i dunno.. life is just passing me by..

"what have i really accomplished in my life?"

i really cant answer this. what things have i really accomplish? nothing... really nothing. what i do is just what everyone else can.. i feel useless. i cant even... sigh. forget it.

"why am i who i am?"

ya..why am i me? why am i not u? why arent u me? why did god make me who i am?

some of you might be able to answer these, good for u then, u have found out ur reason for living. i cant, so life till now is still meaningless to me. i wonder sometimes, do u live to find out your reason for living? kinda contradicting. well, life is contradicting.

sigh, i really feel useless, cant even do things properly, dun dare to do things i wanted to. i need a goal ( dun tell me about scoring good grades ) in life. sigh.

okie. crapped enough, its been a long time since i had such a long entry. the entry isnt organized, i just wrote what i feel like. bleah. dun worry, i will feel better in no time.

2004-05-15T13:15:00.000+08:00

yeah~ weekend's here again. actually what's so interesting about weekend? i dunno. lol. just that i get to sleep whole day long. sleeping rocks. 2 more papers before my exams are over. geo and emaths paper 1. kinda give up on them, did real badly in paper 2, so doing well in paper 1 wouldnt help, which means i should just give up. haha.

um, went to watch van helsing yesterday. great movie, exciting from the start to the end. its about draculas trying to take over the world and stuff, its really good. go watch it!

2004-05-12T21:39:00.000+08:00

alright, i think i finally know the reason why i cant study well. i get distracted easily, cant concentrate. therefore my lousy results. well, the problem is.......

I DON'T HAVE A DECENT STUDY TABLE

haha yea. i don't have a decent study table. so where do i study? so far the best place to study in my house, is the dining table, however, due the bloody warm weather, i can sweat just by sitting there. hence, i cant study well there anymore. the second place i would choose to study is, my computer table. tell me, how to get not distracted while the com is right in front of u? another place to study is.. on my sofa. i will feel my eye lids closing the moment i sit on the sofa with my books. now tell me, HOW DO I STUDY?! ARGH......

2004-05-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

ARGhHHHHHHH IM GOIN CRAZY!! CHEM SUCKS!!!!! SO DIFFICULT!! !@!#!@

2004-05-10T16:12:00.000+08:00

Burn - Usher

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

(CHORUS)
When the feelin aint the same and your body don't want to
But you know you gotta let it go
Cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn let it burn (gotta let it burn)

Deep down you know its best we stop
But you hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that its over you know that its through
let it burn let it burn (gotta let it burn)

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but i want you
Cause the feelin aint the same
Find myself callin her.. your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she aint comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back (Ooo ooo ooo ooooh)
Man i dont know what im gonna do
Without my boo (ooo)
She been gone for too long
It's been 50 11 days
Um-teen hours
Imma be burnin till you return

(Chorus)

I'm twisted cuz one side of me
is telling me that i need to move on
On the other side i
Wanna break down and cry ooooh
I'm twisted cuz one side of me
is telling me that i need to move on
on the other side i
wanna break down and cry

ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh
ooooh oooh oooh
(can ya feel it burnin?)
ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh

So many days
So many hours
I'm still burnin till u return

(chorus)

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umm...this is a good song, really nice. go listen to it.

2004-05-10T16:02:00.000+08:00

hmm today was the social studies paper, which means i have 5 and a half more papers to go. it was quite ok, at least what i have studied came out, was so afraid it didnt. lol. umm, same problem again today, not enough time to compelete the paper. only wrote 2 or 3 lines for a 7 mark question, hope i will at least get a mark? lol. hmm.. tommorrow's the chinese paper, doesnt feel like studying at all.. sigh. blogging is boring. i have no topic to blog about. alright, shall end here. bye.

2004-05-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

today was the amaths paper, i know i have done badly. i did revised for it.. but when i got the exam hall, my mind seem to go blank. all the things i remembered seem to vanish from my mind. the paper started, i took a real long time to recall the formulas etc. i skipped the whole of trigo and log question.. around 20 marks gone? sigh. i can do them at home.. but not in the hall. guessed im not used to the hectic atmosphere. i knew how to do the last few questions.. the problem is, i have spent too much time on those which i dunno how to do! in the end, i have no time for those question i knew how to do. argh.. another 10 marks gone. total of 30 marks, gone into the drain. i can only hope for a pass now. sigh.

tomorrow is the english paper.. didnt revise anything for it. i cant anyway. just hope that i will get used to the atmosphere and do my best. good luck to everyone and me.

2004-05-03T18:51:00.000+08:00

im studying. i really am.

2004-04-30T23:44:00.000+08:00

angela is nice. angela is cute. angela is kind. angela is clever. angela is superb. and lastly, angela is BHB!

2004-04-27T22:02:00.000+08:00

sighhhhhh. mid yr is around the corner, and i haven prepare anything for it. think i gonna flunk my mid year real badly. my plan is to do badly for mid year and do better for prelims. some improvement award ya? lol. $.$ oh yea and i gotta start revising for chi o's soon. real soon. about a month away. sighh. whenever i see the chinese textbook, i get sick. damn. i hate chinese. i like to speak it, but i dun like to write it. lol. sigh. at the rate im goin, i gonna flunk my o lvls~ sigh. i wanna revise. but i just cant seem to do so. i hate books. i hate to study. arghhh. life sucks.

2004-04-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

its over, finally over. the day i have been waiting for since ages ago. i cant say that i am really happy, i feel kinda sad too. 4 years, just over like that? i feel so weird... too sudden? i dunno.. the combined POP wasnt really that good. just a mere 3 hour POP, and its all over? i dun think my services for 4 years are worth 3 hours? sigh, life is unfair. the seniors had much better POP. now, my life has changed, something which had been part of my life for 4 years, just gone like that. i missed the times when we were all training together. the days may look tough, but its really memorable. it isnt really the drills and discipline in ncc that matters, i think its the friends i have made from ncc. you guys have been a great part of my life. will we still keep in contact after passing out? or will we just be strangers, like nothing has happened? i hope not. i hope that we will be in contact even after leaving school. but it seems so difficult. sigh, good bye ncc. i will miss you.

2004-04-23T18:11:00.000+08:00

today is commonwealth sports day. what can i say about it? one word. SUCKS. well, it rained and the whole school was just sitting at the grand stand. yakking away. im becoming more and more anti-social, couldn't talk much with the rest. sigh, guess that's me. im really bad at socializing, i cant even talk well. most of the time, people say i dao. but then, i really want to be friendly. but... i cant, maybe coz im shy? ya im a shy person.. in case u all dunno, lol. Sigh, i feel terrible. i wanna be more sociable. be more open. i dun wanna become an anti-social. but i am becoming one. sigh. forget about the last entry, it means nothing.

2004-04-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

bleahx

2004-04-17T23:34:00.000+08:00

another boring day. slacked the whole day. did nothing constructive. and yeah, the damn weather sux, so hot. perspired just by sleeping on the sofa. arghhh.

2004-04-15T21:39:00.000+08:00

yoooooohooooooo~ i m back~! lol~ yea my determination sux, cant survive without da com. keke. haven been blogging abt half a month?! got so much things to sae here!

ok the most recent stuff~ of coz the soccer match between 4/6 and 4/2+4/3. ahh.. score is 2-1 onli~ and the half time is a week long! shall nt elaborate more. 4/6 won and dats it ^^.

todae had napfa 2.4km...omg! all passed! except 1~ cant imagine it man.. veri pe the whole class was like walking lo, din expect every1 to pass! lol~ though my timing been goin down every year..but its still quite satisfactory tis year, at least got a C.

arh.....i wanna complain abt the damn weather! SO HOT!!! argh.....the weather sux, i can just sweat by sittting in class. damn the weather. i hate it. i believe it would cause an increase in water usage in singapore, everyone would wanna bathe more times. like me! ah... damn the weather

Chi O lvls in 1 and a half month time!!!!!! haven start preparing yet! ah...sigh~ i wanna score a distinction! though quite impossible lol~ nvm...nx week...nx week and i shall start preparing! mid yr is coming too...sigh~ damn exams.

hmm guess there's all for now. sigh. gotta slp early tonite. so tired. nitex.

2004-03-31T17:38:00.000+08:00

this will be my very blog entry. i will be gone after todae. u wun c me here anymore... take care my frens. dun miss me. i hav gone to become a better person. good bye and good luck to u guys in everything u do. bye!

2004-03-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

haix. its all so weird. contradicating. haix.

2004-03-29T22:32:00.000+08:00

OH YEA! I AM GOIN TO SCORE AN A1 FOR MY CHEM! ALL 4/6 PPL WHO WERE IN THE CHEM CLASS TODAE PLZ BE MY WITNESS. YEO SM SAID DAT SHE WILL ALLOW ME TO THROW MY RESULTS SLIP IN HER FACE IF I SCORE A1 FOR CHEM! ALL 4/6 PPL PLZ REMEMBER TODAE AND BE MY WITNESS. I MAKE SURE I THROW THE RESULT SLIP INTO HER BLOODY FACE! A1! HERE I COME!

2004-03-25T22:19:00.000+08:00

holy, bad dae for me, now i learnt my lesson. dun ever do wad u sae u dun wanna do. lol~

2004-03-24T17:16:00.000+08:00

omg~ i still cant believe it! i actualli scored the highest for a test in my class! LOL!

2004-03-23T19:51:00.000+08:00

another boring day...when is my life goin to get interesting? haiz. something's missing in my life. something's lacking. its U! yes U! abcdefghijklmnoprstvwxyz => my life! U are missing!! come to me plz!

2004-03-21T20:55:00.000+08:00

sigh~~ another boring day.. well, everyday is a boring day to me. hmm... looks like most the entries haven been talking much about my life..so i shall do one now. aniway this will be one of my last few blogs...i will not be coming online from 1st april onwards ;). gonna study for o lvl chi and mid year.. lol~ ok..for those who wanna noe more abt my life.. here goes..

morning - went for tuition

afternoon - came back and rot till nite, and didnt realli do any hw.

haha yea dats my life. boring eh? yea it is. thats all for todae. will tell u all more abt my boring life in the future. ( er.. at least for the next 10 days. )

2004-03-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

im sooooooooooooooooo boredddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd~~~ somebody tok to me plz~~ ='(

2004-03-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

Gareth Gates - Say It Isn't So

Skies are dark, it's time for rain
Final call, you board the train
Heading for tomorrow

I wave goodbye to yesterdays
Wipe the tears, you hide your face
Blinded by the sorrow

How can I be smiling like before
When baby you don't love me anymore

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Tempt to find, at least we've tried
We're still alive with hope this time
As they closed the door behind you

We're so close and times are still
Shake the ground beneath the wheels
As I wish I'd never found you

How can I be smiling when you're gone
Will I be strong enough to carry on

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

Miles and miles to go
Before I can sail, before I can nail my love for you to sleep
Oh darling oh
I get miles and miles to go
Before anyone will ever hear me laugh again

Say it isn't so
Tell me you're not leaving
Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so..

Say you've changed your mind now
That I am only dreaming
That this is not goodbye
This is starting over
Say I'm not wide awake
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so
If you wanna know, I don't wanna let go
So say it isn't so

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this song rox, go and listen if u can. im in love with it~~ lol, for those who dunno, i listen to english songs too!

2004-03-19T21:35:00.000+08:00

lalala i choose to ignore my problems. lalalala~

2004-03-19T12:42:00.000+08:00

fucking hell. when u are down, everything seems to go the wrong way. i just wan to slp peacefully, and god dun even allow dat. fucking neighbour been drilling the whole dae. so fucking noisy. how do i fucking sleep? ahhhhhh bloody fuck! FUCK LIFE! FUCK EVERYTHING!

2004-03-18T19:30:00.000+08:00

great. everything is just so great.

2004-03-18T18:17:00.000+08:00

im still tramatized everytime i think about it...

2004-03-16T10:58:00.000+08:00

im traumatized.

2004-03-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

mahjong can save me from depression.

2004-03-14T23:34:00.000+08:00

im a failure in life. a complete failure in everything.i feel so useless. i juz a fking selfish guy who onli care abt his own feeling and not others. i hav a life full of regrets.

2004-03-14T20:09:00.000+08:00

dun hav the mood to blog properly.. just found out how i fared in life..

2004-03-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

Sigh, so bored now. So the only alternative other than rot or stone is to blog. Haven't been blogging for the last few days...feeling lazy lol.
Hmm, nothing much happened today. Actually there is, after school cb yq and hl came to my house for mahjong. Everything was ok until my mother came back.. nope, my mother wasn't going to scold me for playing mahjong, she was asking us how come there's only one pair of shoes outside? I went to take a look...and, cb and yq shoes weren't there anymore! wtf! Damn...their shoes got stolen, its the first time anything like this happened in my house. Bloody hell, stupid thief! shoes also want to steal! Haiz, felt so guilty. All my fault, why didn't i ask them to put their shoes in my house? Instead of leaving it outside? Fk. I hate thiefs.. Why can't they get the things on their own? If they're poor, just fking admit that they're poor. Don't steal expensive stuff and wear to show them off! They don't belong to you! Sigh, I had things stolen before.. much worst though. A 7250i, when it just came out not for long. Sigh. ALL THE THIEVES GO TO HELL!

2004-03-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

Just realised how foolish i was yesterday. Haha. Why should i get so worked up over NCC? Anyway today was boring, don't really feel like blogging. So, see ya!

2004-03-08T20:57:00.000+08:00

Feeling pissed now, over the bloody stealing incident on friday. Sad to say...there are more involved, total of 10 people... 6 are from NCC. Oh yea, so what does this show? NCC cadets are all thieves or what? Ok this is not the thing that pissed me off. It's that bloody fbi, sms to other clts, saying something like " 6 out of 10 people who stole are from NCC, is this what you guys teach them? ". Then of course...the clts came to find us, (me and wilfred). Oh man, what the fuck? Please lah, people want to steal, blame us? ha!ha! Did i steal? NO! LEARN FROM US?! DID ANYONE OF US STEAL OR NOT? OR DID WE ENCOURAGE THEM TO? NO! NO! NO! They want to steal, only shows that their got no correct moral values, their parents never teach, this kind of stuff, DO YOU EVEN THINK THAT WE SHOULD TEACH? SHOULDN'T THEY HAVE IT ALREADY? YOU CAN ONLY BLAME THEIR PARENTS! STUPID ASSHOLE! And furthermore, who's that person who said he wants NCC to be fun? No more tough trainings? All fun? HAHAHAHA! THIS IS THE BLOODY RESULTS OF "FUN" AND YOU ARE SHIFTING THE BLAME ON US? WAAHAHAHA! Ok, I had enough, 1 more month and everything will be over, and i will be out of this fucking cca.

2004-03-05T20:34:00.000+08:00

Wooot. Just changed my blog template! Really love this! Cause I love Jay! Haha. But I'm not gay, don't worry, i just idolize him. He's just sooooo cool and talented. When will I ever become like him? lol. ok shouldn't dream anymore.

2004-03-05T19:45:00.000+08:00

Today was a tiring day. School had something really uncommon happened. Yea, it was spot check for the whole school, and i mean WHOLE school. Lessons were all stopped at around 9, then terrance annouced over the PA system about asking the teachers to cooperate and to give us spot check. If the school were to confiscate all the handphones, I think they would get loads and loads of handphones. My class had 26 people bringing handphones out of the 40. Yup, but the main purpose in spot check isn't to confiscate handphones, but to look for a few stolen handphones. 3 phones were lost, 3315, 7250i and........ x70!!! OMG! x70! If I got a x70 and it gets stolen, i swear I will cut the thief up into pieces! x70!!! I brought my phone to school and it happens to be a 7250i, and I got to report to the teachers as one of the stolen model was 7250i. Yea, and that's when i saw everything happened, how the thief got caught. The teachers were looking through the lockers by the lift and found a small discman carrying bag, with the stolen handphones in it. The x70 was inside, and the owner of the phone was like crazy when she saw the phone. Actually anyone would have the same reaction too. 2 person got caught for this. And both are from NCC... oh man... I feel ashamed of them. From NCC and do such things... Hmm, still don't know about their punishment, will have to wait until Monday. School ended at 11 today, due to the cross country team girls getting 1st in both B and C division.

My friends all came to my house after school today, yea, they were here to gamble. Actually it was just suppose to be a mahjong session with my few friends, then another group of friends said they want to come to my house to gamble, being a good friend, of course i agreed. Haha. Lost about 5-6 bucks, but it's ok, worth for the entertainment for the past 6-7 hours. Yup... that's all for today, feeling damn bored now, that's why i am blogging. Sigh~ somebody chat with me!!! Oh yea... Today's entry is DAMN long for me.

2004-03-04T19:09:00.000+08:00

I've decided to blog in nice proper english, this will help me get prepared for O's end of this year ;x. Actually part of this "proper english" thing was inspired by xiaxue~ my blog idol! Yea, her blog rocks~ very interesting (in proper english too!). Ok, back to my life, today i went to Sakae Sushi with some of my classmates. Yea, was so damn full after eating it, ate a total of 18 plates~ the ones with the largest appetite ate 27 plates! Haha, the one who ate the most gets to eat the sushi for free~ The rest just contributed a dollar or two to him. That's the reward for eating the most. Hmm, don't really have the blogging mood, shall not blog anymore. Think i will end here for today. Oh ya, i hate myself for having a big mouth~. Damn. Arghhhh, don't wanna talk about it anymore. Bye~!

2004-03-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

woooo......got back my life......feeling SO much better now~ yea..